No God Lost, No God Found

Everybody is searching.

I’m too…

But what is it?

…

I wake up, I exit throughout the day, I cease to.

Why do I exit for whatever time I do? Why my head, whatever it is, hurts, when I want to exit all along? Why do I have to exist? Why do I have to cease to?

How do I know I’m not my uncle?

At some point nothing makes sense. What is sense? Why is sense whatever it is? Why do I want to make sense? Why am I asking ‘why?’

No reason

No answer

Nothing

There’s an eternal darkness, beyond. And because of that it is not even that. I can’t further. I don’t know what is, what isn’t.

Is this darkness the God? Is this Nothing the God? Is Nothing God? Is Nothing Absolute?

I only have questions. Some say they have answers, but they lie.

Only Nobody has answers. Only Nobody knows. The only answer nobody knows is Nothing.

A constant search, every act, conscious or otherwise, is a search. Maybe we imagine it to find it the other day, maybe another month, a year, a decade, a century, a millennia, billions of years, never. But we search, and search, and search…

But what is lost? What is there to be found? What are we searching?

Are we searching for what’s not even lost, but we have a sense that it is lost? Why is this sense then? Are we the ones that’s lost? Are we searching for ourselves? If so why? If we are lost, why are we lost? If we are to be found out why is it so? Why should we find ourselves? Why should we find God?

For peace? The eternal one? Why doe we need God? Why do we need eternity? Why want to be Immortal? Why do we want answers? Where and whence does this all end?

No answer

Nothing

I search for something. But when conceived of it, I find it not to be the subject of the search. Am I in search of the inconceivable? I search for the inconceivable, I find it, but then I don’t, cause I cannot conceive it.

Every finding, every answer, Nothing but the bottomless pit.

In every search, all around, in every thing, in Nothing found, there is nothing to search for, Nothing to be found.


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