Absolutism – The search for the Absolute

I often ask myself, what? why?, I can find many hows, so hows are not primary for me. It is the easiest among them. No matter what the answer is, or how many answers there are, it all fades to insignificance. What does not fade in insignificance is the question itself.

It stands strong and proud as ever. Trying to find the answer, the search has always been for an answer. The answer that is supposedly nothing but that is expected to be the representation of the Absolute – that which is invariant, immortal, Permanent. But everything, every answer fades and is temporary, goes extinct, vanishes into nothing, into insignificance. The ‘answer’ that was supposed to express and teach immortality, itself fades to non-existence, itself consumed by death so to speak.

Never ever came to realization, that the Question that has been staring at me, and that I’ve been staring at, is the one that has never abandoned me. It has always stood there facing the answer that were supposed to destroy it, and, on the contrary, consuming those answers without any rush. It is the one that has never changed, never shaken a bit, the one that has been staring at me wondering what a fool I’m to not recognize the true Absolute.

It is the one that has stood there all my life, all of humanity’s existence, all of Universe’s existence, is at least as old as the time itself, and may even be older than time itself.

Thinking about this, I get a sense of the Lovecraftian theme to it. But it even surpasses the ‘cosmic horror’, as it surpasses even the idea of cosmos. It’s right here, but yet ultimately beyond. The greatest horror that even surpasses the “behind the question-mark” horror, is the Question-Mark itself. It has always been there, staring at you, which you not just never sought but probably never even expected. How scared should one be realizing this? It’s been there all along, apparently transparent, waiting for you to realize it. The mental picture of this is …..

But I don’t see it has horror. I see it mystically. Those non-exhaustive stream of answers throughout the years that fueled me with enormous moments of joy, however finite they were, can be looked back at and rejoiced in wonder. I never realized it, but it gave me what I thought was mine, and which I thought helped me win and overcome it. It was letting me win for brief periods, to have those Eureka moments, but in all that it had been training me and giving me lessons to come to the realization of what actually was the real deal, of itself, of that which is Absolute. It didn’t reveal itself as that (absolute), it didn’t enforce it upon, rather it inspired to make it happen on my own terms. It wanted me to realize, not just take for granted or as a command. It helped me grow, it is my friend, my parent, my guardian, which I never realized was even there, whose credits I stole to make it my own. I don’t know what it is since it’s a Question-Mark, but yet I realize it. I searched for the absolute, which was present and close to me all along.

The Absolute Absolute is the Non-Absolute.

This is what INDEFICEPTION IS, THIS IS WHAT INFIDEFICEPTION IS: https://dhiresh114.blogspot.com/2021/08/indefiception-infidefiception.html

Everything is about and the search for the Absolute. Every existence is about that. From the cosmos, to a mundane human act. The search for the “Laws of Nature” or the “Fundamental laws of Nature”, the search for a “reason” – a “Justification”, the relation between things, the Quantum decoherence or supposed Quantum decoherence, the “Theory of Everything”, the curious acts in search for something, the axiomatic structures of Mathematics, the layers upon layers of relations and structure of proofs, the Platonist ideas of fundamental elements or fundamental geometric structures, the supposed/apparent Scientific ideas, Logic and the system of Logic, the theology and religious ideas, civilization, fundamental particles and Physical systems searching for stability, and uniformity, diversity, Lionel Messi, the idea of and called “GOD”, no-GOD, the big “Why?”, ….. All this, in search of the Absolute, the Permanence, the Immortality, the tendency to sustain, preserve and promote Existence, to make its existence dominant with respect to the “rest”, with respect to the “other” relevant existence, for example in/along what’s referred to as “time”.

But, and this is a big but, there is no Absolute. The only absolute is No Absolute. Nothing is absolute, and I mean, “Nothing” is the only Absolute. Everything is Relative, even Nothing. I.e. Relative is Absolute, Absolute is Relative.

Everybody has their own God. Some have deities, some reason, logic, some Science, some have Theory of everything and Laws of Nature as their God, some have atheism, some nihilism, some Philosophy, some money and resources, some have no-God as their God, some have relativism, some absolutism, some like me has that Question-Mark or Absolute Relativism or the Existence or NOTHING or NOTHING = EVERYTHING or Indefiception-Infidefiception or STATE[MENT]VERSE OR VISHNU.

It’s all about the Absolute, the Permanent, the Ultimate, which there isn’t, which is Nothing, non-Absolute/Relative, non-Permanence, non-Ultimate.